The Daily Paul

LAST ENTRY APRIL 11, 2020 DAY 3: It's morning and I'm still up . I'm not in my mood right now. Maybe because I felt sick but yeah I know I should rest but my body can't cooperate.  I'm killing the time by playing music and start to write another entry.  I have no plans for today so I don't know how will my day will go. I don't know if I should sleep all day or what but I guess I'll figure it out later. I hope I get back my old energy. I'm gonna leave this quote that I stumbled upon.      " Later with time, everything heals. Whole afternoon I only stayed n my room playing musics to distract me. I don't feel good honestly. I feel sick but I don't have one. Apparently, while I am organizing my blog page, I accidentally hit all the entries to revert from draft. I only noticed it when I visited my page. This night, we watched Titanic with my family. It never fail me to cry again. The em...

Tahan na, bata. Ang iyong sugat na dinadala'y hihilom din. Bigyan ng oras ang sarili at huwag madaliin.  Ako'y mainipin ngunit ako'y nandito. Handang umakay sa pasan mo. Handang maghintay. Luha'y papawiin. Bagong araw ay sasapit na. Bagong buhay ay sisilip na. Lagyan ng wakas ang iyong pighati. Tama na. Tahan na.

APRIL 10, 2020 DAY 2: It's past 4 in the morning and I haven't sleep yet. I guess my body was so used to in our late night talks. A lot of realization actually but one thing remains constant, I am officially missing you big time. A lot of things bugging my mind. I kinda wish this self quarantine that we've agreed on ends now because I am actually holding myself as much as I can not to disrupt you . Everytime that you felt like I wasn't thinking of you, uhm maybe like why did I not messaging you please I want you to know that everytime I do, I almost do. Everytime that I don't message it takes so much in me not to call you in the middle of the night just to say that I'm missing my baby so much. Guess it's a natural phase of mine again. Sad and happy moments. Sappy hours indeed . I want to distract myself by watching movies. Netflix and chill you know, but I can't get you off my mind. I wanted to know every details of yo...

Silence. It is time of day where my soul succumbs in great darkness and silence of the night. I don't remember the last time I felt this way.  My mind is restless. Begging our creator to give me strength to be strong enough to face each day that you're not by my side. You are my calm in the storm. You always knew how to tame the monster in me.  Today, you're not here. I feel so lost . I'm lost in the woods again. Screaming with hopes that it would subside the fear cave in my soul. My body is aching in the weight of your absence.  I am stuck between two things in my mind and heart. Torn between letting go all the hurts inside of me or another is missing you and wishing you were here with me tonight. Although, I'm missing every part of you. My heart never stops beating for you. It grows . My feelings toward you grows every moment.  Come back home, sweetheart.

APRIL 9, 2020 DAY 1: I woke up late again as usual . I was a bit surprised when my mom doesn't force me to wake up. After I finished my morning routines, I saw my mother preparing for cooking "Puto" na sabi ni Jaidi at asawa ni? Kidding aside. While on my bed checking the phone , I was so shocked. You are stubborn huh? And I guess nagmana ka na sa'kin. Your blogs makes me in awe. I was amazed by the taught that you made an website that is cool! It was superb, love. Hoping that you would enjoy making blogs other than updates. After preparing , I decided first to watch movie. I don't know it's just that watching series of movies helps me to forget the current situation. Anyway, Ponyo is so great movies. A whirlwind of emotions indeed. I didn't expect the ending but it really made me happy that they end up together. This scene in the intro made me more love the movie because look at them, they are so adorable. ...

APRIL 8, 2020 DAY 0:   After 9 hours and 17 minutes Good Afternoon! I'mma update you, love. Kakatapos ko lang manood ng Princess Mononoke 💙 SOBRANG GANDA! I wish I'd watch it again with you. Right now, matutulog muna kami ni baby Eli. Look! Tignan mo baby natin, nasa dibdib ko pa talaga natulog hahaha I hope you are doing fine. Love lots! 💙😘 - CPV2020 APRIL 9, 2020 DAY 0: After 19 hours and 5 minutes I'm done watching Howl's Moving Castle . It was lit! I'm enjoying your taste in movies. Also, we ate samyang again and ang funny kasi lahat kami sobrang naanghangan eve si Papa. Ang funny talaga love hahaha sobrang pawis niya and si Mama kaya tawa sila nang tawa. I also noticed your profile picture. YOU LOOK SO GORGEOUS LOVE. I'm missing you so much but worry not I am taking good care of my self.  Natutulog po ako tuwing hapon and nilalaro si Eli but you know hub I am thinking that...